Angry at Mom

Mom, if I make you feel half an inch tall, maybe its because what I'm saying is true? If it wasn't, then you'd just feel angry at me, for being such a brat and a liar, not actually depreciated in your self-esteem. Ohh, and you've contributed $22,000 to my education? You mean the cost of one semester at my university? You mean the amount of child support you got across approximately 2, but lets call it 3 to be generous, years out of the 8 or more that my father was writing you fat checks? And lets not forget that you sued him when you found out that he was working a second job, running his own company. Which, by the way, has been entirely funding my tuition for the entire time that you've contributed less than $1000. So don't make me laugh. Ohh yeah, and while we're at it, complaining that he got the "10 room house"; well yes, I guess if we're counting the bathrooms and the pantry. Conveniently leaving out the part where said house is in the middle of a ghetto, and you have the gall to complain that your house is small and not in Pasadena. I'm sorry, you're in fucking horse country, and spent a quarter million more on that house. You're not allowed to feel sorry for yourself by comparing yourself to him. If you wanted, you could have a 10 room house in the ghetto too, and you'd have an actual contribution to make to my education to boot.I've seen the checks written for the rent on your second house. And apparently that only covers a quarter of what it costs to run your household, including mortgage payments? So, it costs you approximately $10,000 a month to live in that house, and still you think that contributing $22,000 to my education is praiseworthy?
Let me make this perfectly clear. I am not angry that you've squandered all of your money on yourself and left the cost of my education to other family members, but principally to my father. I'm angry that you continue to try to convince me, perhaps because you've convinced yourself, that this is a praiseworthy contribution, that I should be as thankful to you as I would be towards my father. I'm angry that you continue to blame him for your measly contributions, even though its been a decade since the divorce and you now live in a house of twice the value. You can accuse him of cheating you out of the house, but if that's so, why are your living conditions so much better? Could it perhaps be, that he's put a lot more aside for me, that he's actually the supportive parent?
Could the explanation for your behavior be that, not that you were cheated, but that you're just selfish? It's fine to be selfish, your money is yours. I have no right to demand monetary support. But on the same note, you have no right to claim that you're supporting me in any insignificant manner. The rent you get from your second house in one month could pay for my apartment for four months. What you pay to run your house for a month could pay my tuition for a semester. The money is yours, but don't make me scrape for the paltry amount you set aside for me.